I was not selected as a finalist for the Women's Studies position. I have not heard about the Sociology one yet. I'm similtaneously hopeful and terrified. If I do not get the job, the extra downside will be that the school has hired two full-time faculty members, so as an adjunct there I have been told I won't have as many classes. Makes it even more stressful.
It occurred to me, as I didn't sleep well last night, that I have spent this exact time of year at age 19, 29, and now 39 in a similar, life-altering way.
In March 1996, I found out I was pregnant with identical twin boys. I was a sophomore in college and being a mom certainly altered the next decade ahead of me.
In March 2006, I was married with a nine year old and trying to have another family member. If you've been around here that long, you know how that went. Not very well. But we decided to have different goals as a little family and it has been a far better decade than I ever could have imagined.
And here I am, right before starting my 40's, having dreamed of being a full-time faculty member at this school since I started there as a student fifteen years ago. Will this third decade change be the charm?
As hard as it will be if it doesn't work out the way I've hoped, at least the last two decades have taught me a lot of good can happen no matter what.