To tell you the truth I am struggling. I was well aware that it would be hard to find an opportunity to work as a community college instructor with my shiny new master's degree, but I was naive about how hard it would be on me. Altogether it took me eighteen years to earn these degrees and I desperately want to use them. I dread that the fall will come all too quickly and I will not be successful in my pursuit to lead a classroom.
I wish I could say that I'm able to stay positive, but I have to admit that this fear is wreaking a little havoc in my life. I am so focused on what might happen in the immediate future that I am not really appreciating each day for what it is. I am not accomplishing anywhere near what I should be. I am feeling a little lost.
On Sunday afternoon I decided to craft up a little reminder to myself that life is not all about tomorrow and that I need to stay focused on each day...
I dragged a paint brush across some watercolor paper in a dozen different shades and when it was dry I flipped it over to draw the messiest attempt at letters. I have spared you a shot of the million wonky pencils lines I attempted...let's just say I showered the carpet with eraser bits. Somehow those lines and some sharp little scissors made these skinny letters I was actually pretty happy with...
I mounted the letters on an 8"x10" canvas with some foam tape and it was done. Love that this whole little idea came together in less than an hour.
It's sitting on one of the little shelves above my computer monitors and will hopefully be a good reminder to stay positive as I keep working towards accomplishing my goals.