Okay bear with me as I go all lovey-dovey here for a minute.
I love him.
But most importantly I am really starting to love us. We have worked hard...really hard over the years to get to the place were we are now in our relationship. That place happens to be where disagreements and frustrations are resolved quickly and in a fairly kind manner...as opposed to the days-long destructive fights we used to have. We no longer try to out-stubborn one another for the sake of "winning". We are forthright about wanting to end the consternation and get back to everything being okay. We actually listen and admit what we do wrong.
In all honesty most of "our" problem was me...I'm pretty vicious when I'm hurt and angry. I always knew from a practical standpoint that the issues should just be resolved, but I'd always let emotions take over and turn most simple disagreements into utter disasters.
For some reason in the last year everything has started to shift and we both have found new commitment to making this an 100% happy relationship instead of 90% good 10% awful. Now when we argue I have a completely different perspective and I can see that Sean does too...I don't know if it's a symptom of a little growing up...maybe we're wiser or more patient...but whatever it is it's working.
So I just wanted to celebrate a little "us" success tonight...surely we'll have more issues in the future but we can stay on this same path we'll be just fine....and I feel so lucky that I can say that.
