Life is so much different than last year...last year on Father's Day we were in the middle...still dealing with losing Darby, but also planning our next attempt to try to complete our family.
This year our family is complete...we've settled in...we still hurt when all of our friends and family's little babies or toddlers do something that melt our hearts...but we also are in a place where we're thankful that we all sleep through the night and don't throw temper tantrums (well at least not too often).
So this Father's Day is different...it's quiet with Mac at Bryce's...and busy with Camp less than a week away...but I still wanted to sit down for a minute and write out a little celebration of this guy...
Although there are glimpses of a future teenager in this house that have Mac and Sean butting heads more than ever, it's clear that they share a strong relationship as they read Harry Potter together most nights or as they head out the door this week to Sean's school awards night all dressed up since I was out for the night and Sean made sure to check with his principal that he could bring Mac along. It's stuff like that I could take for granted, but I try to remember not to...
Mac gets to have two great dads...and I get to have a husband who is an amazing parent.
So between cutting hundreds of pieces of cardstock today Sean and I will go out and have our random little Father's Day tradition...I think it was like three years ago that we ended up at Nordstroms on Father's Day and I convinced Sean, who will rarely spend money on himself, to get the cool pair of jeans he had just tried on and looked really good in. He did and he loved them so for the last few years we hit the sale every Father's Day and he shops...usually just a pair of jeans and maybe a t-shirt...and even though it's a silly and materialistic way to spend Father's Day...it's a fun little afternoon we look forward to now.
So although we'll be doing the same stuff we usually do, this Father's Day is different...the hope of more family might be gone...but it's being replaced with gratefulness and a sense of peace...and that's a testament to Sean...when he came into our lives we really became a family...and every year after both Mac and I have been endlessly blessed by his love.
