thinking about lots of different things...first of all I've been thinking about how grateful I am for all the support I get here...thank you so very much for each word of encouragement you write to me...I could never put into words exactly how much it means to me and how it's really helps get me through all this, and has for the last six months...I know I sound like a whiny brat about it most of the time, but this is my outlet...it's cathartic to write it out...get the sadness and fear documented so I can leave it behind as best I can...so thank you for everything...
So, I feel good today...hot flashes haven't been that bad...got some good stuff done this morning...some paperwork hanging over my head and phone calls...scheduled a haircut and highlights for Friday--more red here I come.
Yesterday I bought the Grey's Anatomy and The Last Kiss soundtracks from I-Tunes...put them together on a shuffled play-list and sat down and scrapped...just this page...it's a terrible photo from the night Roxana took Darby back...We were sitting there devastated and Sean went into survival mode when I lost it over the fact that I had nothing to do now I had no baby to take care of...he meagerly suggested I could scrapbook...but that was an even worse suggestion because I had worked so hard to catch up on everything before Darby arrived that I had absolutely nothing to scrapbook...until I told Sean to grab the camera and he took this...so I got to it last night...made a mess of it, but that's kind of what I wanted since it was a pretty raw night. Not all memories are good right?
Oh well...back to it...need to go rearrange something in Mac's room and run some errands...a few weeks ago I was dreading this time when I'd be on my own here at home...but I'm grateful that I've kept busy...constantly finding something to clean-out or re-organize...maybe I'm nesting...ha ha...again for the millionth time...but I can be all cute & annoying and just say it's nesting...we'll see...
