So I've been up since 4am again...beginning to wonder if I'll ever get back to California time.
The night before I was up from 2:30am for about an hour...staring into the darkness...dealing with the fact that adoption agency meeting wasn't a nightmare I was waking up from. What to do? What to do? My mind wandered and then something struck me, something that I had adamantly refused in the past.
If we just went with a sperm donor all I would need is artificial insemination...just a couple of follicle check ultrasounds, a syringe, and laying on my back for a half hour. No exploratory surgeries, no harvesting, no thousands upon thousands of dollars, no birth-mom, no waiting for paperwork, no having to trust someone else.
Originally I didn't want to go the sperm donor route because I firmly believed that WE were infertile...I didn't want to think of it as I could have children and Sean couldn't. I didn't want a child to be half me and half some random man we be able to get a few stats on.
I still don't know how I feel about it altogether...but we're thinking about it. My first priority is to speak with our adoption attorney today and see what he says. His office can do the entire adoption process and they have been very good to us through everything, so if he is certain he wants to works with us and see our family through, this sperm donor discussion might be reduced to a random passing thought. If he feels working with us is a conflict of interest because of his affiliations with the agency, or he agrees we need to wait indefinitely, then I have no idea what direction we'll head in, but I want to look at all the possibilities.
So, the untypical poll...because I like feedback, new thoughts and different perspectives...if you were in our shoes at this moment and were to decide between domestically adopting a newborn baby or being impregnated with donor sperm which would you do?
I doubt you'll be stopping by other blogs today and get to think about this, huh? :)
