between productivity and utter laziness this week. I realized I haven't posted on here so I thought I'd ramble for a few minutes...being that I'm up way too late.
I have finished up the couple gift/stocking stuffer errands I had. Mac and I went out and about shopping this afternoon. I am always so thankful this time of year that I make such a concerted effort to get things done ahead of time...there are some majorly grumpy people out there right now. Costco+three days before Christmas=yikes!
I feel like I have been endless straightening up around this house and still nothing seems organized. I'm in the mood to clean out...which Sean and I plan on doing next week. Starting tomorrow he'll be off for two weeks and we're plotting about how much we can get done...I cannot wait.
We went on Tuesday afternoon and decorated Griffin's grave for the holidays. We didn't do a tree this year so it's just some simple candy canes and garland. There are some amazing decorations going on in that cemetery...I had mom guilt for not going all out. Even after all these years it's so strange for me to stand there and think about the fact that I have a son buried. The thought of him is so alive in my heart as this intangible angelic-like presence. I guess it's kind of morbid to take smiling photos by an infant's grave-site...but life is life...and this is what Mac and I have of him.
I've been dealing with family drama that is ever so typical around the holidays. Let's just say my mom is less than thrilled with the fact that I won't put aside my sister and brother's horrible behavior throughout the year (who are we kidding, it's YEARS) and celebrate Christmas with them. So she'll be stopping by to briefly exchange gifts on Christmas afternoon and that's about it. To be honest I'm fairly hurt that she writes me off as a judgmental bitch while she enables them, but really what can I do? I can enjoy a quieter holiday and not have to worry as much about entertaining anyone, that's what I can do. :)
I can't get over the fact that Christmas is in 3 days, or I guess now that it's after midnight it's in 2 days...actually December 23rd is one of my favorite days of the year...so close to Christmas but it hasn't quite started yet...all the anticipation is at it's height...so much to look forward to...so many blessings to count...
